I’ve come to know a few things about you. You are a liar. I don’t need ways out of my life. I need life now more than ever. You give me false pretenses and thoughts that “others don’t know, don’t care and could never understand.” However, that is not true at all.
I did not choose my parents, the day I entered this Earth and, God knows, my creator never intended me to choose when I leave the Earth. I’ll leave that day, also, to my creator! I will not quit reaching, praying and extending my faith past my circumstances. Yes, faith is where I will stand. No matter the darkness that I perceive that encompasses me, there is light. I can remember every single time I’ve felt love and given love… I must live to give love and will no longer think to honor you.
Suicide, you are a liar. I rebuke you and command you remove yourself from my thoughts and my presence as you are truly the enemy of life, love and redemption. My story does not end here.
As long as my body has life inside of it, I know that my creator has a purpose for me and I will bow to no other calling than the call to live in faith. Faith in tomorrow, faith in love, and faith in my creator.
I can be an example of redemption, care and love. I will never surrender. Love rules my heart. I have to go now. Life is waiting for me!
Goodbye you liar. Goodbye!
Truly not yours,
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Michael Wright says:October 11, 2018 at 9:37 AM
Amazing and well said! Thank you!
Zecharia Gilbert says:November 15, 2018 at 9:37 AM
Thank you, Michael!
Alessa says:November 26, 2018 at 3:03 PM
Question to anyone willing to hear it? What do you do when the organizations that “claim” they are out there to help you listen to your story hear the pain, agony and tears in your voice and after listening to your story of abuse, struggling and torment just shrug it off when there best b.s cookie cutter text book answers don’t work for your enique specific situation and the final answer to your questions, pleading and begging for help is an “oh well” kinda additude cause there isn’t anything more they can do, want to do, there aren’t services in your area or aren’t laws in place to stop the abuse and pain. Been through dozens of places. When I first thought about suicide I even called the suicide hot line (🤣 what f***ing joke). So i ask when one is done with the horrible abuse and mistreatment of ones life at the hands of others because of your disability, sexual orientation or beliefs and your civil rights/legal rights have been violated and nobody wants to help then what? What’s the magic number to get the help you need? The only help number I can come up with so far is .45 because no matter how many times a perfessional individual can try smile and say in a sympathetic voice (bordering on mock pity sometimes) “it’s going to be alright” deep inside the victim knows d*mn good and well it ain’t. Maybe we can or should just lump it all in with mental health make the victims believe there is something mentally wrong and a counselor and a 5 gallon bucket of anti depression pills oughta fix everything (lol…but trust me no it won’t) so I ask as I sit with my number….what next?
Zecharia Gilbert says:November 26, 2018 at 6:02 PM
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justin says:August 26, 2019 at 5:11 AM
the reason for me is because I have imagination and reality problem with my thoughts so everything seems to go alright in my head but not in reality.I am living in a country that i have to hide many parts of my real self and do something that I do not love to do.I can not get out of this situation or immigrate to any other country because I do not have the money and enough skills to make my dream come true. My parents do not care about what I think and they just want me to have a simple life and do not say anything so this prison breaks me and my soul every single day!
Zecharia Gilbert says:September 11, 2019 at 2:34 PM
Justin, only the mind can build a prison. One of the greatest men to walk the Earth did his greatest work within the walls of a real prison. He held onto faith and knew that he would simply serve where he stood. And that’s what he did. He made friends with the prison guards and all knew him to be a great man. Many times we can’t see that we’re on mission no matter the circumstances. Keep on task, keep believing and don’t look back! One day you’ll encounter new circumstances and those too will fall away. Be you and fight the good fight!